When I first started this journey, the decision to change, to become what I truly am, was of the utmost importance. There was an intense sense of urgency. After all, I could no longer live my life as a lie. The very thought of that was so abhorrent to me that I wanted to leap off a building rather than live one more second as a bundle of half-formed and ludicrous beliefs. It was very necessary to see the life that I had led up to that point... the life of unworthiness and suffering with unconsciously held expectations of my own deserved punishment.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
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